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WhoDat!656 05-01-2013 07:21 PM

Kyle Turley admits suicidal thoughts, fears brain damage
 
Former NFL offensive lineman Kyle Turley admits that heís scared.

Thatís why he takes medication he hopes staves off degenerative brain damage, and why he called a league-sponsored help line when he considered suicide.

Turley, in an in-depth story with Michael Gehlken of U-T San Diego, thinks both stem from a career in the NFL which included two diagnosed concussions but what he thinks are many more undiagnosed ones.

ďIíve got young kids,Ē Turley said. ďItís scary as hell. It keeps me up at night. Itís something that weighs on me heavily.Ē

Turley, who is one of more than 4,000 former players involved in a concussion lawsuit against the NFL, said he suffers bouts of vertigo and light sensitivity. He said his grandfather suffered from ALS, but that there was no other family history that involved brain disease, or pointed to suicidal thoughts.

ďNo one in my family has ever gone crazy and killed themselves or thought about that,Ē Turley said. ďI have. Itís not a thought that is fleeting. Itís a thought that goes away when Iím on my medication, and the thought of doing a lot of crazy things as well and making unbelievable decisions.Ē

Turley has a 2-year-old daughter and a 4-year-old son, and he said he wants to do anything he can to make the game safer if his son wants to follow in his footsteps.

ďIíve got as good of a chance as anybody of going down that road into Crazy Land or into Super Crazy Disease Land,Ē Turley said. ďIíve got every opportunity to probably be in the same boat in the future, and I donít know how far in the future. Itís very, very disturbing, very frustrating, very stressful to deal with, especially having kids.Ē

Those children were on his mind when he called the NFL Life Line, a 24-hour counseling hotline set up by the league after Junior Seauís death last year.

ďIt was imperative that I did,Ē Turley said. ďI donít know how to explain it. Itís just a moment where youíre lost. Youíre completely gone. You donít understand the things that youíre doing, youíre pissed at yourself because youíre doing the things that youíre doing, and you have little control, it seems, over it.

ďEven in the moment, youíre saying, ĎWhy is this happening? What is going on?í But youíre still in it. Itís a weird thing. I donít really know how to describe it. Itís frustrating to no end, and that frustration can lead you to some pretty low places. Only those who have gotten to the point where they picked up a phone can probably understand.Ē

He canít help but think about Seau at such times, and the fact that the support system that stemmed from the former Chargers linebackerís death might have saved his own life.

Kyle Turley admits suicidal thoughts, fears brain damage | ProFootballTalk

vpheughan 05-01-2013 08:08 PM

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I live near Indianapolis and when the Super Bowl was here Turley was too. He was going around with a guitar and singing to any radio station that would listen.

jeanpierre 05-01-2013 10:11 PM

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I miss the big lug...

I pray and hope he can find help and comfort...

He was one of my All-Time favorite Saints...

foreverfan 05-01-2013 10:22 PM

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I though he killed the dude the time he ripped some guys helmet off.


SmashMouth 05-01-2013 10:45 PM

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... And a head banger too!

Crusader 05-02-2013 12:48 AM

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...but he threw that helmet like a sissy.










I would not tell him that to his face ;-) :-D

SaintnDE 05-02-2013 08:15 AM

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Quote:

Originally Posted by Crusader (Post 500399)
...but he threw that helmet like a sissy.










I would not tell him that to his face ;-) :-D

not without an escape route!

TheOak 05-02-2013 10:03 AM

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Originally Posted by SaintnDE (Post 500452)
not without an escape route!

Preferably emergency helicopter basket... may as well call one before, your going to need it either way.

hagan714 05-02-2013 10:34 AM

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dam i hope not. i loved to watch him play.

i guess anger mgm classes earlier in life might have helped

i still roflma when i think of that

Utah_Saint 05-02-2013 10:46 AM

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Originally Posted by foreverfan (Post 500388)
I though he killed the dude the time he ripped some guys helmet off.

Me too. I thought the guys head was still in it.


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