01-07-2020, 10:15 AM
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Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: Lafayette
Posts: 1,953
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Re: A different kind of feeling
Originally Posted by 73Saint
I don't know why, but I don't feel as bad this year as the last few. And, strangely enough before Sunday's loss, I had more confidence in this team than the last two. Maybe it's because we seemed to have been hitting on all cylinders last few games. Regardless, I'm just along for the ride at this point. I'll continue to put my faith and trust in the front office, and hope for the best. It's still a whole lot better than the Saints of old.
One thing though, I need to get better at how I handle watching these damn games. I have gotten so bad, that no one wants to be around me during the games (and honestly, I don't want anyone around, myself). I have so much anxiety, I make myself absolutely miserable. I have a very difficult time controlling my emotions, it's quite embarrassing actually. Like a 46 y/o throwing a temper tantrum. Makes me wonder wtf is wrong with me.
There, I said it. And I feel better already. Anyone else struggle with this? I am not a drinker, and I have enough bad habits that I don't feel this is one I need to start so I don't feel like booze is the solution.
I used to be that way too. I've calmed down a lot over the last few years though. I think admitting to yourself that you have an issue is the first step. Then you just have to make a conscious effort not to get so upset. It's not easy at first, but it gets easier. Honestly, I barely reacted to this loss. Part of that is because I've calmed, part of it is because I have lost a lot of love for the game in the last 2 years. The clear bias against the saints makes it difficult to invest much emotional stock anymore, and I've learned that there are far more important things in life than any game. At the end of the day, it's just entertainment, put on by people who couldn't care less whether I'm really enjoying it or not. It's nice to have a team to root for and all, but when I look back on my life I'm not likely to list any football games amongst the things that made me truly happy.
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Mais forte do que a morte
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