I don't know why, but I don't feel as bad this year as the last few. And, strangely enough before Sunday's loss, I had more confidence in this team than the last two. Maybe it's because we seemed to have been hitting on all cylinders last few games. Regardless, I'm just along for the ride at this point. I'll continue to put my faith and trust in the front office, and hope for the best. It's still a whole lot better than the Saints of old.

One thing though, I need to get better at how I handle watching these damn games. I have gotten so bad, that no one wants to be around me during the games (and honestly, I don't want anyone around, myself). I have so much anxiety, I make myself absolutely miserable. I have a very difficult time controlling my emotions, it's quite embarrassing actually. Like a 46 y/o throwing a temper tantrum. Makes me wonder wtf is wrong with me.

There, I said it. And I feel better already. Anyone else struggle with this? I am not a drinker, and I have enough bad habits that I don't feel this is one I need to start so I don't feel like booze is the solution.

I used to be that way too. I've calmed down a lot over the last few years though. I think admitting to yourself that you have an issue is the first step. Then you just have to make a conscious effort not to get so upset. It's not easy at first, but it gets easier. Honestly, I barely reacted to this loss. Part of that is because I've calmed, part of it is because I have lost a lot of love for the game in the last 2 years. The clear bias against the saints makes it difficult to invest much emotional stock anymore, and I've learned that there are far more important things in life than any game. At the end of the day, it's just entertainment, put on by people who couldn't care less whether I'm really enjoying it or not. It's nice to have a team to root for and all, but when I look back on my life I'm not likely to list any football games amongst the things that made me truly happy.

Well Said!
The ending to 2017 - I was distraught and inconsolable that a missed tackle at that stage ended our season, I was in a mood for about 2-3 weeks.

In 2018 - I was massively upset, but not distraught like the year prior. Everyone saw the early hit and whether they admit or not, knew we were robbed of a Super Bowl appearance. Once again, I was in a mood for a while, just not as bad as the previous season.

2019 - I had a bad feeling all week - especially when I saw some talking about the weather in GB. I had a feeling that Cousins would look like Montana facing us, Theilen absolutely destroyed Lattimore all game.

But honestly, the loss stung for about 2 hours tops and then I asked myself "why am I always in a mood about something completely out of my control?" And that's when I got over it.
I went to work, people asked about the game, I explained we got beat by a team who wanted it more and then i went about my day, not letting it affect my mood, I'm in a job I love and would hate to put a dampener on it due to a game.

As you said though, I dont find myself as emotionally invested in the Saints recently. A few years ago, I'd always go back and watch games. Not anymore. The high it used to give me when we scored / won was great, but the anxiety of the games was unbearable at times, which explains why I'd often say stuff in the heat of the moment, complete frustration and completely not worth it.