My new year began with me moving to kiss my wife at the stroke of midnight. As our lips touched she jerked away and told me she wanted to finish watching a TV episode. Tried to break the ice with her by talking about wishes and goals I had for us in the new year and asking what she was looking forward to. She had no replies and it was in one ear and out the other and it was all looking away from me. All attempts at intimacy were summarily rejected when we got into bed. The night ended with my voice cracking and tears in my eyes pleading to hear "what am I doing wrong?" and "what's wrong with me". She somehow manage to let out a soft "sorry" while facing the wall. That is how the night ended. Well for her - I only had 5 minutes of sleep.

She is completely checked out. I see very little chance in things turning around. My new years resolution is to put my dick in another woman in 2022 - and if my current wife finds out, then so be it.