Mr. Roboto

I see a lot of frustration on the boards from people who feel they have seen this all before and don't want to put themselves it again. These are people who are just worn out and can't handle another disappointment.

I am one of those people, and to all the other people out there, I would say, DON'T JUDGE.

I have been one of the biggest Saints fans you will ever meet for about 24 years. I have emotionally invested myself to the hilt. I have literally cried tears of frustration.

Today was probably the peak of that frustration. Maybe I'm dead wrong. Maybe they will go win the whole damn thing. But my personal experience says this will end in yet another disappointment.

As I said in another post, I am moving across the country in a few months, and looking forward to separating myself from all this. I will probably still be a casual fan, but I know that it won't be possible to follow the team as closely, and eventually I will probably totally lose interest. And that comes as a relief.

Because: It's not that I don't care enough. It's that I care *too much*. I have let the fortunes of a football team, a bunch of millionaires who care nothing about me or my "fan loyalty" dictate far too much of my life. And that's not healthy.

Because today I had an ephiphany. I realized that, with very few exceptions over the years, being a Saints fan makes me unhappy.

And I'm just tired of being unhappy.